Sunday, April 27, 2003

Little sleep last night, which makes me introspective, and later today I'm sure cranky.

Spurs play a 9:30 tonite and I have at to be at work at 3 a.m. on Monday. I will watch the game and go to work...somehow it will work out. Most likely with a great deal of coffee. I noticed this story, and although I'm not Catholic, with my lack of sleep and dependence on caffeine, I believe if anyone deserves to be granted Sainthood THIS GUY does.
"Be careful, or your hearts will be weighed down with dissipation, drunkenness and the anxieties of life, and that day will close on you unexpectedly like a trap"

Things don't always work out as we expect.
I have a friend working in China, which is a scary prospect at anytime, but these day's it's scarier...She went there with so much energy but because of SARS the gameplan has changed, and it isn't turning out as she expected. I pray for her health and sanity in what has to be a crazy world.
While tossing and turning last nite I finally got up and thought I'd write. I had planned out a "blog" posting in my head, and wrote part of it, but I opted to delete it. From my blog, not my head.

When in doubt, keep your mouth shut...and listen.

I give that advice occasionally at my job where we are sometimes given, or stumble upon, "information" that some people consider "news".

"News" is a broad term, that is often over applied. Just because we know something doesn't make it news. It makes it knowledge. Knowing the best way to use knowledge is a lot like playing poker, sometimes it's better to hold your cards.

Sometimes our "knowledge" is skewed by our emotions. I watched two people I have been working with in recent months lose their jobs because what they thought was news, wasn't. What they thought were facts, weren't. Bad, inexcusable decisions, were made as a result.

That too will work out ...perhaps for the best in the long run, but it will be a costly lesson.
Today's sermon is about "Doubting Thomas". I know that in advance because Amy and Gordon talk about the sermon topic to help her coordinate music. I have doubted many things. It's the nature of the beast when you're something of a paid cynic. At times I doubted myself, my God, and even my reality. It took love, faith, and, for about a year, some prescribed pharmaceuticals to help me conquer, or at least control, some of those demons. I still doubt...there's no doubt about that... but I trust in the all works the interim, I hope I can keep my mouth shut and just listen.